Bunny, are you out there?

[Stella]

Normally I’m not one to stir up a bunch of drama. I may be out of line since I’m not a storyteller here but I feel like something needs to be said. I don’t speak for everyone here at this board and their feelings may be different then mine.

We all used to be pretty good friends. As usual in groups some of us were closer then others but still we were always there for each other. In fact Bunny there were a few times when I was having really lonely nights and you were there for me. I will always have a special place in my heart for that girl who kept me company when I was feeling really lonely.

I understand that you’ve been going through some rough times in your life right now. Especially with the break-up that you had to deal with. Of course none of use would know anything about that because you shut the door on us when that happened. I don’t know if some one did something wrong or if you’ve just decided that things need to change.

You deleted your myspace. Okay cool but then you didn’t even let us know that you had. I found out from the others. You disappear from aim. Okay maybe you just didn’t want to talk to anyone. But you could have just said that instead of disappearing. And now the latest tragedy you’ve deleted your deadjournal. Wow that still has me absolutely floored. I was under the impression that we were friends. That even if you didn’t update that maybe just maybe you cared to read about what goes on in my life. Basically you crapped all over the people who care about you by doing that.

It’s hard to know if you even want to be friends with any one. Maybe you don’t and hey that’s your choice. But it seems like you changed from being that nice girl who kept me company on those nights to someone that shoves her friends out of her life. It hurts that you do that.

Basically what this big speech is about is your future here in Wake. You need to decide if you want to play here anymore. We are going to temporarily play on a livejournal community because some people are having problems with pro boards. It’s hard to know if you even want to bother anymore since it seems like you don’t want to bother with anything else.

Please let us know so we can decide what to do with your characters or give you the passwords and things to the live journal community.

[Bun]

And here I was wondering if the Wake RP had gone kaput because clearly, I am not keeping up with the times. Lamesauce. I should probably click the "Most Recent Posts" link more often instead of heading straight to the threads.

So, this is me, answering this post, in the best way I know how. By quoting and answering piece by piece!

As usual in groups some of us were closer then others but still we were always there for each other.
True fact. The first part, I mean. Not sure about the second part, once one considers stuff like timezones and living arrangements, but I suppose you didn't mean it literally?

I will always have a special place in my heart for that girl who kept me company when I was feeling really lonely.
Being honest right now, those conversations were like, incredibly awkward on my part.

I understand that you’ve been going through some rough times in your life right now. Especially with the break-up that you had to deal with. Of course none of use would know anything about that because you shut the door on us when that happened. I don’t know if some one did something wrong or if you’ve just decided that things need to change.
Yeah, that breakup was kind of a bitch, but hey, shit happens, right? Anyway, again speaking bluntly, I honestly didn't feel like emo-ing and wangsting over that thing with you guys, that's why none of y'all heard about it. I mean, other than the initial announcements, anyway. And even THAT was something I cringe at, because HELLO, DRAMA QUEEN MUCH. Ugh, w/e. It had nothing to do w/ anyone being a bad friend of stuff like, it was simple and practical. Who needs angst, unless it's in a particularly engaging television drama or a novel?

You deleted your myspace.
I had a stalker. My bad. I don't think rationally when stalked. I pretty much deleted my site and hightailed outta there.

You disappear from aim. Okay maybe you just didn’t want to talk to anyone. But you could have just said that instead of disappearing.
No, I pretty much disappeared from AIM after I caught flak from the folks about shitty grades and I basically got my internet privileges taken away from me. I don't even talk to half the people I used to chat w/ simply because they were often online and I wasn't. Wish I could've said something, but yeah, internet privileges removed, kinda difficult, amirite?

And now the latest tragedy you’ve deleted your deadjournal. Wow that still has me absolutely floored. I was under the impression that we were friends. That even if you didn’t update that maybe just maybe you cared to read about what goes on in my life. Basically you crapped all over the people who care about you by doing that.
This is probably the biggest problem, from what I've gathered from my convo w/ Rica. I don't particularly consider the deletion of a DJ a tragedy, consider I never had much of a sentimental connection to online blogs. I mean, great way to keep in touch, it's true enough, but it was a tool to me. Apparently, everyone BUT me holds great sentimentality to DJ, which baffles me to no end (and amuses me, but that's probably not something you guys wanna know, but as long as I'm being honest about things) and that's why the whole DJ-deletion has become BIG DEAL, amirite? It was a tool, a tool that I no longer used, and therefore had no need for. So it was deleted. No, I didn't intend to "crap all over the people who care" by doing that. It was practical, logical, and reasonable. It's like when I deleted all my DJ posts one time, only on a bigger scale. I didn't use it, didn't need it, didn't want it. Not because I didn't want to bother reading about your lives, but because I simply had no use for DJ. That's all. Sorry if I did the online equivalent of slapping faces, I had no clue DJ was a big deal. I really didn't. I must've missed the memo about it, because I've never thought about it that way, honestly. I'd apologize for deleting it but I find nothing wrong with what I did.

It’s hard to know if you even want to be friends with any one.
Here's the part where I do something terribly cliche and say "It's not you, it's me"... or something equivalent to that. It's hard to be friends with me, at least with the me right now. Ugh, sounds vague and almost FF-ish. But w/e. True fact. No, I'm not making sense, am I? Let's elaborate at the next quote.

But it seems like you changed from being that nice girl who kept me company on those nights to someone that shoves her friends out of her life.
I'm going interpret this in my own way and say this is probably the nice version of saying, "Bunny, you've become such a bitch!" And that's probably right--- what am I saying, 'probably,' it's pretty much right on target. I'm not the Bunny I used to be, and probably not the Bunny you guys would even like anymore. Things are different, and I'm different. This whole entire post probably sounded like it was dripping in sarcasm or whatever, but that's actually the kind of person I am now. I'm not very forgiving, and I suppose I've become very cold. I must be, considering I've read this whole post quite a few times and it was hard for me to feel particularly hurt about it, considering most of this has a basis on fact, but I don't even feel offended.

It’s hard to know if you even want to bother anymore since it seems like you don’t want to bother with anything else.
I'd bother. I would, and I'd love to roleplay, but you guys have to decide if you want me to roleplay with you now considering all the stuff I've just said. Sorry you don't see me bothering with things, but I'm outside the circle now, I suppose, in terms of interests. I'm wholly different, I'm staying that way, and I want you guys to decide if you guys would be alright with me coming back. Because I'm not going to ruin a great RP if my return is going to cause mass friction between you all and myself--- which, from what I can tell, has already happened. Ball's in your court, kids. (Don't take it like it's demeaning, please and thank you.)


So that's it. That's my schpiel (god, did I even spell this right?) and that's just an extended version of what I told Rica. I'll be checking back around here in a day or two, to see if there's a response. I'm taking a lack of response as a "NO, BUNNY, GO AWAY" just so y'all know.

[ST]

Ah well, so you have a new persona now, can't do anything about that. Thanks for explaining it.

Anyway, let's just go RP. I pm'd you the password already. I almost posted it here lol

[Bun]

It's like how Squall went from "...whatever" to "I LOVE RINOA *insert heartbreaking smile of hot here*" only without the whiny rebel faction Princess and. You know. The saving of the planet from ultimate evil. Only backwards. And. Without Seifer. D:

[Ash]

glad you decided to stay bun, even though you have changed from the person I once knew. Al spoke for all of us and it's cool that you took the time to reply and explain yourself.